Thursday, February 28, 2013

Home Wrecker 2.0


I am so glad that Home Wrecker is now getting a second chance. We all deserve second chances and this, in a way is what Home Wrecker is all about. I am human and if you are anything like me, you can understand being far from perfect.  At times, my judgment has been poor, to say the least. I still blame myself for some of the mistakes that I have made. There were circumstances that I didn’t seem to know how to get around, but in my imperfections, I have learned to accept my vulnerabilities and short comings and have faced them head on. 
I wrote this book because I thought some individuals could relate to my narrative and maybe even get something out of it. In those pages there are things that I felt I needed to share, even if it would make me look like a lesser person in other people’s eyes. In some ways I am even seeking forgiveness, not so much from others, but from myself.


Monday, February 25, 2013

Master Koda Select will be publishing Shattered Reality!


I am very pleased to announce that Shattered Reality will now be in very good hands and is in very good company. Master Koda Select Publishing has accepted my book for publication and I couldn’t be happier.


So far, this has been an awesome experience. Kim and the Master Koda team couldn’t be more friendly and professional. It is so nice to be treated like an asset rather than a number. 





Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Home Wrecker Never Grows Up


There once was a time I thought by the time I turned a certain age I would feel like a grown-up. Unfortunately that has yet to happen. My body keeps changing (not for the better) but I am still very much like the little girl I once was.

When I was growing up I looked at my parents as my elders. They were truly adults, or so I thought. They seemed so mature. Maybe it was just an illusion? Were they just putting on a well constructed act to try to convince me that they knew best? Knowing what I know now, I have my doubts.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Home Wrecker Love


Even though I am in love with my boyfriend and so glad I left my husband for him, our relationship does not come without some struggles. For one thing, his friends and family were not as accepting as I would have liked.  I was not used to being  criticized by so many people. I knew we did not walk into this relationship in an ordinary way but I thought if these people really loved him, they would have learned to accept me as I am.

In the past I was used to all my boyfriends parents loving me and treating me like a daughter or even a friend. When it didn’t happen, at first I was really offended. Today I am a much stronger person than I once once. Through this experience in a way my innocence was lost but at the same time my inner strength was found.


Debt is a Home Wrecker?


When I was with my husband we were always on a budget. We would have to be on an “austerity program” as he called it. He worked ten hour days and still we could never get ahead. Our budget was always being blown. At times, I thought he blamed me even though I contributed quite a bit of money to the household. We just never went a month without some kind of new debt.

I know most people have this issue to worry about. It is the way of the world and can be a never-ending struggle. My husband used to say he wanted to make enough money so he wouldn’t have to take crap from anyone. Somehow he thought if he was a financial success nothing else would matter. He hated being reminded of his own mediocrity and refused to hear about people who were achieving more than he did. Being with that kind of person made it difficult to look past our money problems. When I was with him I was always reminded that we were not okay. That is a hard way to walk around life, feeling like you are not good enough. After a while I started to think of myself as a failure too.

Now that we are apart, I refuse to look at my triumphs in life solely based on my economic situation. Money makes life easier but it does not guarantee happiness. Happiness is accepting yourself as you are.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Brooklyn's Home Wrecker Valentine to Bo

Bo, my Valentine

When I first met you I never thought you would change my life in so many ways. At the time, I was not such a happy girl but I made the best of my circumstances, as I was used to my misery. Spending time talking with you made my tired body come alive. It was the best feeling. When I wasn’t with you I missed you. I didn’t want us to ever be apart but I knew we had no choice but continue to live our separate lives. Eventually that became impossible. There was no turning back.

Now that we are together I am so thankful I don’t have the chance to miss you.  I just love being with you and sharing our life as partners. Still, I don’t know how I was able to do what I did but there has not been a moment of regret. I now know that we belong together.

Truly Yours,

Brooklyn

Monday, February 11, 2013

Home Wrecker Valentine


It has been close to three years that I met my boyfriend. That chance meeting changed my life completely. I never would have guessed that someone would have had the power to make me want to give up EVERYTHING. When I walked away from my marriage I didn’t just walk away from this one man. I walked away from everything that was familiar and safe. Many of the relationships in my life would forever be damaged or even come to a halt. At the time people might have thought I was losing it. They must have been thinking that I was having a nervous breakdown. I went completely out of my comfort zone and surprised even myself.

I do believe in fate and this man was my destiny. Maybe it was just meant to be. Same as I was meant to lose my mom at such a tender age and suffer a chronic illness. We don’t always have power over our future but whatever we can control we have to take advantage of because it is a gift. Somehow I was open enough to see that when I did. Had it been earlier I don’t think either one of us would have acted on it. We might have said “hello” and then just walked the other way.

Home Wrecker 2007


After getting sick in Sept of 2007 I was trying to make sense as to what had happened to me. I was always so healthy. I ate well, exercised and did all the right things, or so I thought. The stress in my life didn’t help any but who doesn’t have stress? It is unavoidable and with what I had going on at the time, I had to learn to go with the flow and take it head on. Life was anything but easy before then but little did I know that life was going to get even harder.

While I was lying in a rented hospital bed that was delivered to our house with my dog Ivy lying by my side, I hoped something good would come out of all the bad that I was going through. I knew I wanted to do something to make a difference, if not just for me but for others who were in a similar unlucky predicament. I was told that I caught this disease “Transverse Myelitis” maybe from a virus. The doctors didn't know for sure.  At that time, I believed they knew more than they did. What they did know was the chance for a full recovery for me was unlikely. 

What had I done to deserve this, I asked myself. I talked to the man upstairs and hoped for an answer. That answer never came. I was left to figure it all out on my own. Broken pieces and all.

Now several years later I still ask myself, why me but I have come to accept that of which I cannot change. I hope telling my story helps others. I know I am not alone and there are others that suffer much more than I do. I just have to believe things happen for a reason. With that in mind, I know I have been put on this earth, if not for any other reason but to share my story.



Sunday, February 10, 2013

Labeled a Home Wrecker


When I walked away from my fifteen year marriage I was given a label. That label was Home Wrecker and those words have defined me ever since. I was not a perfect wife but I tried to be the best person I could be. I wanted to be like my mom who put her family first. I cared about the welfare of my husband and was maternal with him. For most of those years we worked as a team. Then we did not.

Years of struggles and disappointment changed us. Those events altered everything. Our relationship became more about obligation and less about love. My feelings for him died and so did my enthusiasm for life. It was as if everything inside me went numb. During that time my husband became distant and whatever good that we had between us was no longer there. I stopped trying and I think he did too.


Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Jessie


Today I received some extremely sad news. My ex-sister in-law called me to tell me her mom Jessie has died. For years her and I have not only been family, but we were the best of friends. We have been able to share EVERYTHING with each other. Even though I was no longer part of the family for obvious reasons, Jessie still made me feel special. Our friendship only got stronger through the years. She accepted me and showed her love towards me when other people did not. During the tough first year of my divorce, Jessie stayed loyal and supported me in every way. She never judged me or became critical of my actions. Her love for me was unconditional. Our time together was so special. We acted like two silly teenagers. We couldn’t wait to get together so we could share the latest gossip and laugh about everyday things. I will miss those moments with all my heart and soul. 

There are so many things I wish I could tell her today. That is the sad thing about death, it is so final. Thankfully when she was here we never held back and we were able to tell each other how much we loved one another.

Since my divorce was so ugly I do not feel it is right to attend Jessie’s funeral. Funerals are for the living and my friend is now gone. This is something I have thought about ever since I walked away from my marriage. I knew if this were to happen I would have to step aside. As close as we were, when I decided to end my marriage I knew I had to say goodbye to the people that had been such a big part of my life for so many years. Thankfully, my sister-in-law, mother-in-law and Jessie never took sides. They made it clear that they loved us both. For that, I will always be grateful.

Today is a good day to tell the people that you love how much they mean to you. If I were given the chance, I would thank Jessie for all she has meant to me and give her one of the longest hugs ever.


Friday, February 1, 2013

8 Slices of Cake


I am excited to announce the soon to be released compilation book I did with 7 other girls from all over the world.... Australia, Chicago, Ireland, and etc. This book is going to be out for Valentine’s day. It will be called “8 slices of cake.” There will be 8 short stories. The common thread will be a wedding and a 8 tiered cake. That is where the title comes from. Each story has it’s own cake recipe. Every writer picks their favorite cake. In my case it is Red Velvet! 

We are comparing this book to the movie “Love Actually.” We all write in our own unique style. I am sticking with my Home Wrecker story with  just a bit of fiction to make it work. 8 Slices of Cake will make for a fun read about marriage, divorce, romance, dating, failed relationships, and finding love.

Release date to public: Friday 8 February 2013. 
Release date to reviewers: TBC - either Monday 4 Feb or Wed 6 Feb 13.