Z is for Zest for Life
Y is for Youth
We are young for so long that you can’t imagine ever getting older. When people would comment on my smooth complexion I thought it would always stay that way. Never would I have imagined a wrinkle in my perfectly taut skin. Sadly, you never really appreciate things until they are no longer there. Life is full of things that we all take for granted. We are spoiled, until we are not. Then reality sets in and you have to learn to accept the things you cannot change. I have learned that the little things that used to be meaningless to me are now not so small. I have discovered this only because of what I have lost. These losses though painful have taught me how to live. I now know what we have here on earth is a gift and not something to take for granted. These are things that you don’t think about in your youth. It takes time to understand and receive this gift of gratitude.
X is for XOXO
W is for Writing
V is for Vortex
Have you ever just fallen apart? Gotten lost in a vortex? Lost your motivation or passion for everything around you?
After I got sick in 2007 I lost all hope. I lived a life in a black hole not knowing if there would ever be better days ahead. The potential of never walking again scared me to the core. It felt like a nightmare that stayed during the day and the night. My faith drifted with the thought of living with a disease that could not be corrected. My days were filled with dread fearing what shoe would drop next. It was a dismal time with no silver lining in sight. For a short period of time I was given a death sentence since the doctors didn’t have anything to help get me better. It was all a wait and see kind of thing that made me live my life in total fear.
U is for Undone
I guess you can say when I met this man I came undone. Everything in my character changed dramatically and instead of thinking what was morally right I thought about myself. Selfishly I went with my heart and I must say it was not an easy thing to do. Usually we think about the circumstances and the outcome. I thought of nothing but my great desire to be with this man who though familiar was a complete stranger. The deeper I got into it the further I moved away from my morals. I was caught up in a web of deceit and things only got worse.
T is for Transverse Myelitis
S is for Survivor
I do feel that I am a survivor in more ways than one. When my mom died when I was just twenty-one I had to learn to brave the storm. I had to accept that life was far from perfect and had to make the decision to let go of the hurt and make the most out of of my life.
R is for Revenge
Q is for Quirky
Do you have a good proposal story? If so, I would love to hear about it.
I have always felt a bit of an outcast. At one time not fitting in really bothered me. Why couldn’t I be like all the rest, I thought to myself. Now I have learned it is the uniqueness in myself that makes me stand out. Not being like everyone else has given me a sense of pride. What the heck, it’s easer not trying to fit in. When did that ever work?
N is for Nightclubs
When I was a teenager I started going to nightclubs with my girlfriends from the San Fernando Valley. We were Valley girls experiencing everything for the first time. It was such a freeing feeling to be out there in the open without parental supervision. This freedom did not come easy, as I had to fight tooth and nail. Most of the time I made my parents miserable. I wanted to be able to do and think for myself where my parents still looked at me as a baby. It was a constant struggle that never let up.
M is for Marriage
L is for Loner
K is for Kiss
The first time I kissed my boyfriend I was still married. I wasn’t even considering leaving my husband even though I knew once I crossed that line it would have to be over, it was just a matter of setting the wheels in motion. Once his mouth touched mine my marriage evaporated just like that.
J is for Judgment
I is for Ivy Grace
That is the name of the dog that I left behind. When I went to pick out this dog from the shelter I kept seeing signs that spoke of Grace. I saw the word GRACE on billboards as I drove from one shelter to another. I told myself it would be by the grace of God that a dog would get a home on this day and that is what happened. I saw this silly little shepherd mutt that called out to me from the kennel bars. There was just something in her eyes that told me she needed me. From that day forward I never looked back. Ivy came to me by the grace of God and I will always be thankful that it was her that I picked.
I realize in my A- Z challenge “I” should have been writing about being Inspired but I chose to write about my dog Ivy Grace instead. (The dog I left behind.) Though there is no one who has inspired me more than this person who comes in the form of a friend. My girlfriend Sidne has been my rock for so many years. When I was flailing and trying to find my way, she was always there to help me pick up the pieces and save me from myself.
G is for Girlfriends
F is for Family
E is for Endings
D is for Divorce
Would you stay in a marriage that lacked love because you made the commitment? Could you sacrifice your own happiness to avoid becoming another casualty of divorce?
C is for Cheater
When I left my husband after fifteen years I was considered a cheater and a home wrecker. Not only did I ruin my home but my boyfriends home as well. It is not a pretty time in my life and not something I love to think about but it happened. Not sure how things got so out of control but it was long in the making. This perfect storm was building and it was just a matter of time before everything around me erupted.
Have you ever done something so immoral that you have a hard time forgiving yourself? What will it take for forgiveness to come?
B is for Boyfriend
When I was growing up I had romantic notions about having a boyfriend. Thought there would be love at first sight and that would be it. We would sail into the sunset or something silly like that. Instead, I had some rather disappointing experiences. My first boyfriend was sweet but he was never someone I would be able to spend the rest of my life with as he was hyperactive and let’s just say, not all that smooth.
My long term boyfriend came about when I was nineteen. He was trouble with a capital T, as they say. He was a bad boy and could get away with it because that didn’t stop him from getting attention of which he thrived on and used to his advantage. He couldn’t stay faithful if he tried. It wasn’t in the cards though we stayed together off and on for nearly eight years.
What was I thinking, you ask? The truth is, I wasn’t thinking at all. Have you ever put up with less than you deserved because you thought you were with your ‘soul mate?’
A is for Awkward
Growing up I was what you would consider awkward in every sense of the word. It was very apparent that I would never be prom queen or a member of the student body. I lacked everything it took to be in the in-crowd and I didn’t shine in any one area. Without any stand out features or redeeming qualities, I was just a girl. Even though I had dreams, I lacked passion and unfortunately I wasn’t a natural talent and didn’t know from working hard enough to create a talent. Instead, I walked around lost. Hoping that one day I would discover my calling.
We all need to have something we are good at and in my case I searched but pretty much came up empty handed.
Now that I am an adult and have discovered writing is my passion even though I don’t possess a natural gift.
Have you found your passion?
Please join “This is the Story Of A Girl” my theme for the Blogging from A to Z Challenge. For the entire month of April I will be sharing a story from the alphabet. A to Z. What is this girl sharing now? You might have to stop by to find out.
I hope you have fun with this by commenting and sharing your experiences too. Maybe you can stop by some of the other blogs and join in on the conversation.
This all starts on April fools day but I promise I will be real. No fooling! No joking! No way! You will get the real deal. No holding back!!